the timing is never right

Recently, I have figured out a few things about myself. I have found that I like mellow music by myself, so that I can close my eyes, and pretend I am outside underneath a canopy of bright stars. I also know that I am a hopeless romantic. I am the girl in the theater who is by herself at a romance movie just to see the happy couples. I am the girl who adores valentines day because seeing so many people do things in the name of "love" gives me hope. I like soft touches in interesting areas, underneath my chin, the side of my hip, a grasp of a few fingers, just to stay connected to the one who is holding you.

All of these things are not bad traits. In fact, I am sure they have made a multitude of movies where the heroine has most of these traits, and everything always ends up quite well for that person...so why not me? Well, there is always the argument that I do not , in fact, live in a hollywood movie. I know that it would be great if I did, because there would always be a hilarious best friend, a nice external running narration of my life, and a dreamy man who has a slight problem that he or I will eventually overcome to live happy together forever ( or so they let us assume). No, I don't live in that world. I also have a timing problem. I cannot seem to find men who ;

A) are close to me

B) do not have a personality flaw that I cannot deal with or

C) are leaving the state/country

I am sure that this bad timing is actually a mechanism that I am born with that will pick the best option for me and give me the greatest happiness down the road, but sometimes I just want someone now. Don't get me wrong, I think with this built in mechanism I shall be the only girl I know that has this great thing.. or is it a great thing?

Until a man passes all three of those requirements, I will be pining over every man I have a crush on. I guess that I cant have my happiness yet... my timing is just a little bit off...